Been ages since I blogged. November just passed by like that, fast isn't it? I've done many things and many things have happened. Okay maybe not in November, just early December.
Went out with shuhui for movie and then my house, had gz lessons, went out with yl and hy for a movie and lunch, had gz lessons, went out with joy for movie and catch up, had gz lessons, went out with shuhui again for movie and had gz lessons once again.
I didn't have much chance to practise for my gz exam in November because my sis was having her exams. It's either she's at home, or when she's not at home, I'm outside. So yeah, even if I did practise it would be without my nails, and that totally defeats the purpose of practising cos the feeling and the difficulty is different. When I need to prepare for my gz exam, my sis would be having her school exams -.- It has always been the case for these four years. Oh well. So I decided to just chiong after her exams which ended like in end November.
Practised really hard during that period of time. Went to tr vicky's bukit batok house (it's really damn far, east meets west) twice consecutively on monday and tuesday with siaohui. Her house is awesome! Super many gz man. And her house has sound proof walls :( I think hahaha! If only I had them too. So that one and a half hour's trip there wasn't wasted at all :) Had lesson and practised for around two hours at her house on monday and just went to practise at her house on tuesday. Tuesday was quite fun, got a lift from siaohui's mum! Had swensens for lunch and they had that promotion where we could choose either a side, drink or ice cream for every main course ordered. I didn't really have the appetite then but I just tried to eat as much cos firstly, I didn't eat complete meals the day before (only finished half of lunch and dinner) and secondly, I didn't want to waste the food because siaohui's mum treated us. So when we reached tr vicky's house we were all damn full and I suggested standing up and play gz! Hahaha okay crap idea. Was super stressed up at her house at first when I was practising so tr vicky gave me a dark chocolate to calm me down. Then we started chatting and I got less tensed. Then me and siaohui started distressing by playing other songs like ztf and yizu HAHAHA. Great time! When it was time to go I was a little reluctant cos practising at her house and practising at home is different. At her house, there were people practising hard with you, giving you advice and comforting you when you're all stressed up. But at home, it's just me, my room and my gz. Couldn't ask for help either cos no one else in the house understands gz except me. I don't like the feeling of me cooping up in my room myself. But since my gz exam was just days away, I had no choice.
Was super stressed up from Monday onwards I have no idea why. I've been taking grading exams for three times already and this forth time I was exceptionally stressed and nervous. It wasn't only me who said this. My mum, my ahma and tr vicky also realised this. Everyone told me it was just another exam. But to me, it wasn't just any other exam, it's my final diploma gz grading exam. I couldn't just take it lightly. Didn't had breakfast, only ate half of my lunch and dinner, had sleepless nights for the past few days before the exam. Had the super sian feeling and didn't feel like talking much either. Everyday it's just me, half-eaten lunch, gz practice at tr vicky's house, half-eaten dinner, practise gz in my room, 星洲之夜, (which I didn't really have the mood to watch, just watching for the sake of watching) my bed and sleepless nights. All I thought about when I closed my eyes was the exam. Couldn't even stop thinking about it for a moment. This was the first time I behaved like that as compared to the previous years. I'm really lucky to have such a great teacher (great is simply not good enough a word to describe her) who have been by my side from the start to the finish, giving me advice, comforting me when I'm down and have been commenting on my fb posts telling me not to be so stressed up. It's really very heart warming and I never regretted taking up lessons from her. Never ever. And to all my friends out there who were there for me too, thank you. Really appreciate it :)
Yesterday was the grading exam, but I didn't have the mood to post this yesterday. Was kinda down. Woke up at 8 and started panicking so I decide to maple to calm myself down. Packed everything and headed to NAFA campus 3 in my ahma's friend's cab. There was a little jam otw and I was super worried although we were already quite early. When I reached the holding room, the only thing on my mind was to start practising. After awhile tr vicky came over and started to comfort me again. Hahaha she brought lots of stuff there : hot tea, dark chocolates and HEAT PACKS. Hahaha I think heat packs damn funny cos we're actually using it in SINGAPORE. But we really needed it cos the holding room was so cold and everyone was very nervous so we got even colder. When I heard my name being called my heart skipped a beat. Literally. Had so many helpers to bring my three gz and the jiao into the exam room. Those that weren't helping to carry like siaohui, jing jie and nicholas came with us to the exam room. Tr vicky say I have a fan club! We waited outside and the guy suddenly told us that he saw my exam timing wrongly and called me out earlier. Blur guy! But he quite cute eh siaohui thinks so too ^~^ Tr vicky said my whole face turned red and I was very 温暖 hahaha I can be used as a heat pack :p She tried to cool me down with her super cold hands HAHAHA. Zalynn was super scared too and when tr vicky asked why, she said she was scared for me aww so cute right! Made a new friend who's like four years younger than me :p When it was time, we went in with the gz and I just stood at a side watching them putting the gz and jiao down. I sat down, and the examiners suddenly asked me : 你可以报一下你要弹得曲子吗? Then I totally shocked tio and I was like huh? Then one of them smiled then say : 你今天要弹什么歌曲? HAHA then I finally got it and told them the pieces I was going to play. But I stoned a little cos I almost forgot what my lian xi qu was called -.- I wasn't the only one HAHAHA siaohui and nicholas also! I guess my lianxiqu was okay, played almost perfect with like one mistake. Chun dao xiang jiang was hmm okay at first, but when the examiners told me to skip to kuai ban I almost fainted hahaha. I started playing so fast that my fingers got tangled up at one part :( Oh well it's over anyway. Huan xiang qu the examiners just told me to start from kuai ban :( GAH my man ban I can play well and they don't want to listen what is this man :( The beat gz that part got one mistake I hope they didn't realise cos they were like chatting with each other -.- HAHA and heng before the fan yin part they told me to stop HENG AH if not my hands will tremble like siao. Other than these mistakes I totally cannot rmb anything already hahaha. Ohyah I think I played with too much strength that the gz keep having that PIAK sound :X And my huan xiang qu gz was shaking like hell so I had to support it with my left leg and I think it looked real ugly :( When I came out of the room, siaohui said I was feeling damn hot and asked if I'm having fever or what. That was when I couldn't control myself and cried. Kept avoiding other people cos the more they asked if I'm alright, the more I'll cry :/ The younger kids were all staring at me like so scared for me hahaha cute! After a hug from tr vicky, I felt much better. It was time to worry about the others! Jing jie played very well eh! Tr vicky said he played much better than her when she took grade 9. Nicholas played not bad at first but at the later part the mistakes started coming in :X Siaohui did great in my opinion! Bet she's gonna get a distinction again this year :) The others I don't really know them so didn't go hear them play.
I texted tr vicky when me and my mum got on a cab home and she said I did fine. Our examiner called her and told her that all her students passed. But still dk if it's pass, merit, or distinction. Hahaha and the examiner was also very touched to see all of us helping each other carry gz here and there :) Additional marks? Hahaha k lame. Reached home, changed and went to bed. Wasn't tired then, just didn't want to let them see me cry. I don't know what has gotten into me, but I just kept crying cos I was really frantic about the results, which will be released this Sunday. But I'm okay now, after a good night's rest (no insomnia ^^) and the many comforting messages/tweets/fb comments that came from my friends. Love them really very much :) It's always at these moments where you find out who your true friends really are.
Sunday oh sunday please hurry come! I'm wishing for a phone call from tr vicky like last year. But if I don't, a merit will do. Just not a pass, like two years ago from that biased-against-girls examiner.